Before I counted the cost,
when I could feel nothing,
when I had neither eyes nor ears,
Your heart was my lifeline while
together we grew my own heart’s seed,
Piece by tiny piece.
When I did count the cost,
Your immeasureable love nearly took me out,
far away from where we lived,
I nearly went mad with need of You.
You cradled my head in your immense hands
And I slept, not angry or confused.
Now I need You to light my way back home
past the black forests, crouching beasts
& monsters of my own making.
I want to be in the cleanness of Your heaven,
Broken, I stagger to Your altar.
Bleeding, I call out to the One seated on Your right.
I hear now, Your angels singing songs of healing,
Gabriel ministers to me, hurt but not alone, home at last.